I'm gonna work hard for everyth that i ever wanted. Not for anyone, never for anyone. Nobody is worthy of my work, my effort and everyth that i will wanna achieve in life. I owe it to no one. No one, but my Mum. One and only.

I don't believe fairytales, or everlasting. There is no such thing. Realistic, REALISTIC Me. Some things can never change. As the saying goes, a leopard never changes it's spots.

Tell me what you've gotta say. Show me what you need to show. 

Today i skipped my afternoon awkward timing workshop and went for movie with ww. Darknight Rises! :):) I was v v v tired cos i had 8am lesson so it was pretty hard to stay awake at first! Still, i managed to finish the whole show. Ohwell..... Prefer spiderman actually :) hehe. Cos batman v useless leh LOLOL. no special power. Just one nice pretty costume. for what. Lol.

Movie ended and headed back home for dinner and project right away :( V sad life i know.. after my 8am tut i had mac breakfast in school and did my project for a long 5 hours before movie. So don't say i go out play never do work.. Tired from all the workload :(

Ytd was my first day of menses. Cramp ttly got the better of me. I was so emotionally and physically drained. Was in an awful mood, esp towards the end of the day. Couldn't get what i wanted and crave for, so i started flooding the place with tears. I was sooooooo .. idk. Stress over my fyp and all, painful cramps and everyth just made me a whinny bitch ytd. ww had to bear with all my scoldings and crying. Not ttly my fault.. But, he did not get me the food i craved for the whole day. He said he would get it la. Replied on twitter dont worry some more. zz.

ok, wtv. btw i lost my wallet. end of story. Refuse to be sad over it. Have enough things on hand to make me stress and all. Rly v reluctant to care about it. What's done can't be undone. OHWELL. ww's fault all his fault. (to make myself feel better) his fault for not coming down to pick me home from the mrt. Made me carry so many stuffs (laptop and groceries) as i struggle to drag myself home. #crampdieme

Tmr's another day of torture. I need to finish!! So that i can set myself free by weekends.. except for preparation for my presentationS on monday (two :(:( )

g9!

Deprived of

I don't know why I have this sudden urge of wanting to leave this place and travel to somewhere for a good one or two months. To have my life slowed down.. Take some time out to take a good look at everything. I'm not stressed. I'm just too tired. And suffocated. I don't need a group of friends with me or anyone actly. I feel like being alone.

Maybe it's me-time that I'm deprived of. I need to slow down my life and have some good time myself. Time where I don't need to talk or worry about anyth but just sit, drink and breathe.

it's a break.

*smiles. Today i'm on my laptop with no microsoft ppt or microsoft words on, no tabs on with research. Currently typing my day's entry and not my report. Oh i'm so glad. But, it's not entirely over yet. The best days are still not here. from next week onwards, i'll needa put my gear on and start fighting for my other last 2 reports and 3 presentations for the term (shivers) Ended another SQM presentation today. Submission of report tmr. This week itself, i had two presentation, two report submission. next week too. Will be over will be over. Omg, can't wait. When i backtrack the past few weeks, i still can't help but feel the shivers. Just the thought of it kills me inside. But, i'm rly so glad and proud of myself that i've pulled through it. Counting down, one by one. I really think that by not exactly THINKING or jotting the deadlines down kinda has it's good pt. In a way, i don't feel THAT stress. you know like how they always say, ignorance is bliss. i guess it worked that way? But, by not planning also made me super stress cos i feel so messed up. I need my schedule. i needa plan. Ok, fine i think i just contradicted myself........

Anw, today was sucha long long yet pretty goood day! Started my day off at Chinatown, some good food at maxwell back to sch for presentation and ended my day off with the movie, Spiderman. Finally i get to watch a movie. It's been so so long since ww and i last stepped into the theatre for movie. The show was so goood. At least, for me:)

Class cancelled and this means i have no school tmr:) (even though i could simply pon tutorial and self declare a day off but having the class cancelled officially means i don't hafta be torn between going to sch for attendence or home for sleep since it's a 8am lesson) Hope that tmr will be a good day:)

I'll be working more this weekend for i'll take a break off from working next week cos of my projects. So, tired me. Sigh.

would love to post up some pictures. Update this space and brighten it a lil. But, it requires more time and effort. Now is just not the right time. So, gdbyesss!

Struggles

I'm stressed im vv stressed. With the amount of proj deadlines, reports and presentation I ought to kill myself now. I probably would feel so suffocated by it to the extent whereby I rly feel like I'm close to dying.

So I shall not think about it. I don't think of the deadlines. I don't look at the week. I lead today, and welcome tmr. Just like this, my days are better off like this.

So many projs I'm not even exaggerating. 30th, I'll have two presentations. Two reports. One which I consider it major. My Fyp presentation. :( *tearsss.. This time I'm the presenter some more;( hais.. Ohwell at least im down with most of it. It'll be over.

I'll just do it. No matter what I'll still hafta complete it. Maybe that's another reason why I haven't gone crazy with the workload. Strt after all my projs, I'd have exams to worry about. Ok can can can can.

Heading back home settle down for awhile and out with ww. I need my holidays...

All About Us

This is a feeling, i've never felt but it's all about us.

Happy 27th months and going strong. Ily!

It kept haunting me